I have some exciting, and anxiety ridden, changes coming up. I am returning to school for the last leg of my Masters program and am starting a new job. I will be going to Radiology Nursing. I am taking a working supervisory job. This is a whole new area for me and will require a lot more responsibility, such as policy making. I keep asking myself if I am ready for such things but then again, if not now then when?
Making this journey has been a tough decision. I love the great people I work with. The Emergency Department is an area that requires strong personalities. Sometimes this dynamic gets a little crazy but for the most part it has been an amazing journey that has allowed me to grow as a nurse, and especially as a person. I have learned so much from these people and will miss each and everyone of them immensely. My reasoning for leaving has varying degrees. I dislike the way the department is run (management has a lot to learn about professionalism, decorum, and respect) and feel my filter is not going to hold on much longer. I also do not thrive for the trauma environment like my co-workers do. I like that things are different each and every day but the other aspects of the job outweigh the change in environment. I greatly dislike the pod system that has been implemented (again it stems back to the way that it is being managed because it has great potential). I do like that my new job will allow me to be home at a decent time each day and I will not have to do 12 hours shifts anymore. Three 12 hour shifts will be the death of a nurse. By the end of the third shift you sort of forget how to walk out to your car. It is the most tiring thing I have ever done in my life.
Along with my co-workers I am going to miss working with the kids. It is always a sad day to see a child in the Emergency Room but kids are so much fun to work with too. They are cute, little sponges, and usually the source of a good chuckle. Unfortunately, children can also be a great source of anxiety with regards to the Emergency Department. People do some of the most horrible things to children. Working in the Emergency Department has greatly diminished my faith in humanity. As an ER nurse you can see the very best and the very worst in people. Unfortunately, the worst is what was seen more often than not. It was starting to wear on me. I have been having a hard time leaving it behind when I leave the department.
I took all of this into careful consideration before making my decision. I am trying to stick to the quote that I presented as the title to this post. I most definitely have not been loving what I am doing. So I am trying to be true to myself and am moving on to something else. I think this new job will be a challenge and will, once again, allow for a large amount of growth for me. The best part about being a nurse is that there are so many different areas you can be a part of. So many different things you can learn and contribute to the profession. I try to take everything I see, do, and learn and apply it to life. I hope to do justice to those I am leaving behind and pray I love this new job as much as I did when I first started in the ER.
With these new changes to my life will come a decrease in my free time to read. So until September (when both of these changes take effect) I am going to try to squeeze in as much reading as I can. The latest book I've read is Dead Ever After by Charlene Harris. This is the last of the Sookie Stackhouse series. I was pleased with the end. I really liked how Harris brought back almost every major character from the series. It was a nice finale. I did not see this ending coming (I thought it would end quit differently) but was pleasantly surprised by this ending. Overall, it was a nice wrap up to the series.
Currently I am working on the third book to the Newflesh trilogy by Mira Grant. It has some serious political basing and implications while still sticking to the science-fiction aspect of things. I am finding it to be quite intriguing. Though I am wishing it were more than just a trilogy. Enjoy!
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